I don’t know about you guys but I’ve been in such a funk since the quarantine started. And now I’m finally starting to feel like my old self again. I also think it’s because I started blogging again. It feels good to be back. I don’t feel like I’m dreading each day and waiting for this quarantine to be over anymore. No one knows how long this will last and why not just make the best of it?
I have been working on improving myself. I’ve been cleaning and organizing my things. And that has relieved much of my stress that I have been having. I’ve also been working a lot. Work keeps my mind off of overthinking. And that’s important to me.
I want to talk about animal crossing too. I’ve been playing a lot of it. And I’m in the process of trying to upgrade my stuff. Here are some of my photos of my favorite moments so far. I highly recommend playing animal crossing pocketcamp first before you commit to buying the new animal crossing game. I am not going to let myself buy the game unless I know that I will commit to playing it. I don’t want to spend a month of playing and then never play it again.
I think there’s something wrong with my WordPress page because it doesn’t show me my notifications for my likes or comments. I’m not sure how to fix it, but I can still see my stats perfectly fine on another page.
I didn’t have such a good day today. It started out fine when I was teaching my first four lessons and things went downhill around the afternoon. I wasn’t expecting these students who are on a break from lessons due to the quarantine to continue lessons right now, but I only wanted to show them that there’s a game for the piano that they could play in the meantime. It costs them nothing to download and use it, but they said that they don’t want to. They said that they have too much on their plate right now. I don’t know if it’s because my hormones are all over the place, but them acting like that really peeved me. They don’t have to pay for anything! I’m not asking them for anything. And I don’t get anything from it. They still didn’t want it. Fine. I don’t expect for them to come back because I won’t keep their spot open. I know it’s harsh, but I have things to do and I know I’ve been way too nice. I’m done with it.
This quarantine has made me super irritated in some ways and happy in other ways. I’ve been able to travel often. I like getting away from everyone. And I constantly need to have my space. It has been refreshing for me. I’ve also been spending a lot of alone time. I feel like the mantra of my life is to be by myself, but it’s my favorite thing to do. Not much has been new. I hope blogging my feelings will help me with feeling better.
I apologize so much for not being on here and I know there’s a lot to explain. Ever since the quarantine started, I’ve had zero inspiration to be productive and the only thing I’ve been doing is trying to keep my piano studio together. I know there is no excuse for such a long hiatus, but that is honestly what I’ve been going through. I hope you all are okay during this time and are staying safe. I hope to post more content on here and look out for more blog posts!
Today, I got into my second car accident. Yes, I wasn’t paying attention when I was driving. I looked down for a second and I didn’t have enough time to break, so I ended up rear ending another car. I was traumatized. You never know what is going to happen after the car accident. Am I going to survive this? Is this going to cause me a lot of injuries? Is the other driver okay? I saw my car do things that I didn’t know it could do and I felt terrible about it. The car I hit ended up being completely fine. There wasn’t even a dent in the other car, so the other driver ended up letting me go. He wasn’t upset or anything. I was so grateful. I then pulled into another community to absorb all of the shock of what just happened. I turned off the engine and I just sat in my car trying to let the shock wear off.
Since I’m a huge perfectionist, I was so upset with myself for doing this again. I wanted to hate myself, but I ultimately knew that it was only an accident. I didn’t do this on purpose and people make mistakes. I would never had expected this to happen today, but I can’t give myself a really hard time. I have to understand that this is my fault and I need to take responsibility for it, but I do not have to continue to beat myself up for it. What’s done is done. And I need to start fixing it. I sat there for almost forty minutes before my mind was clear again. I have to say though that my neck hurts and my head is still numb from the accident. I’m going to call a chiropractor tomorrow and try to help myself to start healing. And I already dropped my car off to an auto shop to start appraising the damages. I was so scared during the accident because my knees hit the car. I thought I lost both of my legs. And I honestly think that I’m still suffering ptsd from what happened.
I’ve learned that I need to lessen my driving because I drive a lot for my job. And I am at more of a risk of getting into a car accident than most people are because I’m always driving. I thought about my blog and how I need to start relying on it more. I’m lucky to have a supportive family and partner, but I need to be more independent. I’m going to take some time off today and try to relax my head from pounding. I’ll talk to everyone tomorrow. Thank you for reading.
I’ve begun to realize that I can’t please everyone and I’m tired of trying. I know what I want from my own life and I’m trying to make myself happy, but there are obstacles in the way. I’ve known for a long time that I need to take care of myself and I’m ready to do so. I’m ready to start trying to protect my own happiness.
I’ve also noticed that time has gone so much faster since I’ve been focused on myself. I can’t wait to start reaping the rewards for myself. I’m ready to start living my life the way I want. Happy 2020 everyone!
Hi everyone 👋 I’m back from a short break. I’ve been sick from the flu and I’m actually still recovering from the flu. I haven’t been doing much of anything besides watching movies and resting. I’m trying to get back on the working train and start working again, but I’ve been afraid. I’m afraid to overextend myself and to work too hard when I know my body needs to heal; that is mainly why I’ve been cooped up in my house for a couple of days. I also know how my body reacts to stress and being overworked. I’m not the type of person that can work when I’m sick.
I have been working on my blog though. It’s easier to do because it’s on my phone and it’s one of the only work related things I’ve done in the past couple of days besides going to teach one lesson. It’s been nice to work on my blog and give it the attention it needs. I’ve been obsessed with mommy blogs because I want to be a mommy blogger in the future. Motivational blogs are also my favorite.
I’m probably not going to write too much. I’m going to return back to my resting after writing this. I’ve been watching movies on Netflix. Olympus has fallen has been my absolute favorite movie so far. I also watched the other two movies In the series. I even watched Anger Management with Adam Sandler. I really hope I feel better tomorrow because I have my lsat class tomorrow. And I have a couple of lessons to go to. I’m also meeting my friend to hang out tomorrow. I’ll talk to you guys later!
My life never ceases to amuse me or maybe it’s just people that never stop surprising me. I got into a car accident a couple weeks ago. I told the guy that I’ll fix his car and he took almost four weeks to go to a mechanic to get the quote. He just told me that he wants me to zelle him the money because he can’t take three days off of work to have his car fixed. I don’t think I trust him enough. He said that he’ll just fix it himself instead. I’m pretty peeved because I think he’ll just pocket the money. Plus, I’m annoyed at the fact that it took him four weeks to get a quote. It’s annoying. And I want to do the right thing to fix his car. I think I’m getting scammed. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I’ll just wait until I can get a second opinion.
I’ve also noticed that my students have been asking for a lot more than I can offer. I give stickers when they complete a song in their music book. I have tons of stickers from year and years of collecting them. And I don’t mind sharing my stickers with them. I actually have all of them using the same ones. Anyways, they have been asking me if they can keep the sticker pages. I don’t have the funds right now to just give away my supplies. And I thought it was pretty forward of them to ask. They’ve also been asking me to buy more. They’ll rip them and then ask me to buy some new ones. I don’t usually buy new ones because I have so many that I didn’t use yet. I told them that I’m not going to buy new ones until all the old ones are used. They’ve also been asking me for additional books and gifts if they finish their books. I don’t want to be a mean teacher, but I told them that the prize for finishing their book is the satisfaction of knowing they’ve worked hard.
I understand the need to want more things, but I can’t afford to do that right now. And if I already have these things, I’m definitely not going to buy new stuff. They should be more appreciative of what I’m giving and know that I’m already giving a lot. I am going to continue to not buy new stuff. And they will have to wait.
The answer is up to you. You have to know how much time you can invest. Not many people have time to blog. And that’s okay. I know that I don’t always spend a lot of time on my blog. Instead of working on my blog for a couple hours per day, I’ll work on it every day for a couple minutes at a time. I’m not perfect. You don’t have to be. You will not always be able to work on your blogs for hours and hours at a time.
I will say that blogging is a total investment rather than a daily investment. You can write a blog post today and post it on the same day; that blog post will stay there forever. And you can reap the rewards from it long after you post it. When you reach about 200 blog posts, your blog should have enough content to entertain your audience for a long time. Also when you update your content and add more blog posts, you’ll have more posts that can attract views. I think that this is the smartest use of time. I know many YouTubers that utilize this same strategy.
The main takeaway is to continue working on your blog when you can. When you reach 200 blog posts, your blog will be in a good place to continue gaining views. Good luck on your blogging journey and keep blogging 👍