7 Reasons Why You Need A Piano Teacher

I’ve been doing some research in my hopes of trying to help prospective piano students find resources that are actually helpful for them. I’ve found tons of misinformation about learning the piano that are designed to sell the student something rather than teach them how to be successful in this field. The problem area comes back to the importance of finding a good piano teacher and the reasons why you need a piano teacher to learn the piano.

Proactively, I’ve been looking at the core reasons as to why students are delayed in their learning. I’ve found countless wasted time and apps that have promised piano fluency but have fallen short of that promise. These are time wasters that have to be avoided. Learning the piano is not a short process. If you have been a long time reader of mine, you know that it takes time to learn an instrument. Don’t waste months of time on schemes that are just used to take your money. A piano teacher is the absolute best way to learn the piano.

There are many reasons why you need a piano teacher

Reason #1

You will have someone to correct your mistakes

This is probably the number one reason why I would suggest someone that is just beginning to learn the piano to have a piano teacher. A piano teacher will be watching your playing and correcting you as you go. I often have multiple corrections for a student during the lesson. My reasoning behind correcting my students is because I don’t want them to think that they are playing correctly when they’re not. Think about it like this. Would you want someone to never tell you when you make mistakes? In the future if you do fail, they would just sit back and watch. I would much rather have someone tell me when I’m doing something wrong.

Reason #2

You will have a resource to ask questions

Honestly, I would always pick having a teacher for a new skill over not having one. The reason is because I love to ask questions. If you’re a naturally curious person, you will have questions and that is completely normal. Teachers love it when their students ask questions! I wish some of my students would ask more questions. When you’re asking questions, it helps the teacher to see that you are interacting with the material and that you are putting in effort to learn the piano. I had a student that asked me tons of questions all of the time and he is now playing level 7-10 music. It pays off to ask questions so don’t be afraid to ask them.

Reason #3

You will have access to more resources such as books, videos, and lessons

Piano teachers are the masters of resources. They know which piano competitions are available or which events are happening locally in your area. Piano teachers also have knowledge of which books you should use. The list goes on and on. I would pick a teacher just because they have the knowledge and access to these resource. For me, I have access to resources that students don’t know about. I tell them all about the resources that are available and they are welcome to start using them.

Reason #4

You will be held accountable to practice

Practicing is the number one priority when you are learning the piano. I have many students that only rely on our lesson time to practice and this is incorrect. Your practice time should be triple the lesson time that you have with your teacher per week. For example, if you have 30 minutes of lessons with your teacher, you should be practicing an hour and a half on your own. Practice needs to be done on your own when you can apply the skills that you were taught. You cannot advance for long without individual practice time. Practicing is also the best part of learning the piano and I enjoy it a lot. Even though I am the teacher now, I still have my own practice time that runs about two hours per session.

Reason #5

You will be able to watch someone that plays well

“Watching and listening are irreplaceable when you’re learning”

Have you ever heard of the Suzuki method? The process involves watching a teacher do something and having the student copy. I use snippets of this method with my students. In many ways, they don’t know that I am sharing with them years of my experience. They don’t have to go through the wasted time I lost when they’re learning the piano. They have me there to guide them and that is why it’s so important to have a piano teacher. My students are also encouraged to watch other piano players. We watch them play in order to see how the technique should be utilized and to hear how the song should be played. It helps tremendously when you consider that the student is learning a great amount just from watching someone else.

I also play for my students to help them see more specifically what the technique and sound should be. When they are looking at the sheet of music, they might not be able to translate to how the song should sound like. I encourage them to go online and find recordings of the songs. They are also encouraged furthermore to listen to these recordings multiple times and not just once.

Reason #6

You don’t have to waste your time on other stuff

In the modern world, we are constantly exposed to distractions. These distractions can be incredibly problematic if it begins to delay your learning time. In the span of four months, I have expectations to where my student should be playing at. There’s no other way to avoid the actual work that needs to be put in order to learn the piano. More specifically, note reading is tedious but has to be mastered in order to play the piano. My students despise this task, but we work countless hours to master this skill. There’s no avoiding the actual work of these tedious tasks.

Reason #7

More doors will open for you

When I had a piano teacher, he introduced me to multiple opportunities where I could learn beyond just in lessons. I had the opportunity to learn how to write ballet music and I was able to join a concert band ensemble where I could play my instrument. Other examples of where I had more doors open for me was when I was in school. My music teacher introduced me to outside orchestra ensembles that I could join. I ended up auditioning for them and joining. It was such a good experience for me and I will always be grateful for the teachers that opened those doors for me.

In Summary

It’s okay to fall short of your expectations as long as you keep going

“The piano will always be there for you every time you need it to be”

Falling short of your original expectations is normal. If you’ve found that you lost time on the progress that you would have made on the piano, it’s going to be okay. Nothing is perfect and there are a lot of misinformation on the internet. I am a firm believe of hard work and diligence. If you are able to teach yourself how to play the piano adequately, then do so. However, the best results I’ve seen in my career are from students that received private lessons from a piano teacher. There are so many benefits to having a piano teacher and these are only some of the reasons why you should consider having a piano teacher to teach you how to play the piano.

How much do piano lessons cost per hour?

The question that appears in many search engines is: how much do piano lessons cost? My goal as a piano teacher is to help debunk the myth that surrounds piano lessons and to hopefully make it more accessible for people that want to learn how to play the piano. The cost for piano lessons should not be a mystery. Each teacher values their service differently. Consequently, therefore each teacher will price their services accordingly.

How much do piano lessons cost per hour really?

I’ve heard of teachers pricing their lessons at $100/hour. This type of pricing is typical for teachers that do not want many students and are looking to teach a certain subset of piano students. Typically, however, the pricing is $1/minute of lessons. If a teacher is teaching 30 minutes of lessons, then they will try to price their lessons at $30 for 30 minutes of lessons. If a teacher is offering one hour of lessons, then they will price is at $60 for one hour of instruction. This has been the industry standard for a long time. There are some variations that have to be considered though.

Some teachers choose not to teach in their home and they prefer to travel to their students to teach. When a teacher is a traveling teacher, they will typically price their lesson prices higher. This is because traveling to your student is a better service than if the student travels to the teacher for lessons. Therefore, these teachers will typically add $5-10 to their lesson price in order to cover traveling expenses.

Another variation for pricing to consider is that some teachers will increase their prices based on how many years of teaching they have done or the credentials they’ve received. If a teacher has performed for many years and has competed in national competitions, they will increase their prices because they have more knowledge to offer than a regular music teacher. Furthermore, if a teacher has 6-10 years of teaching experience, they will increase their prices also. I have increased my prices twice. The first time I increased my prices was because I had been teaching for a certain number of years and I needed to be compensated for it. I also recently increased my price again because I reached another milestone of how many years I have been teaching. Experience is valuable. Every year of teaching, I feel like I have grown and studied more of my craft. Therefore, I have so much more to offer for my students than some teachers have. I have shortcuts and more in-depth teaching. These are all things to consider when you are looking for a piano teacher.

Piano teachers will price their lessons according to the number of years they have spent teaching

In summary

Piano teachers price their lessons to the industry standard of $1/minute. If you are looking for a piano teacher, I recommend considering why they price their lessons at the price that they currently have it at. You never know why the pricing may be higher or lower than what you have expected. Piano teachers offer a service at the end of the day. If they have more to offer, they will increase their price.

Does Twitter actually help with blogging?

I’ve been blogging for three years now and I’ve noticed that I always get views from Twitter. I remember setting up an account a long time ago and barely posting on it. I can’t say that I’m the best blogger. I have tons of content, but I don’t promote much of it online besides just on WordPress. Twitter has been a consistent referral source for me. It amazes me that people are using that Twitter account I made a long time ago to come to my blog. I know that Twitter is highly underrated as a referral source, but it has brought a steady amount of people to my blog amazingly.

If you haven’t tried it yet, I recommend making an account for your blog. I’m also hoping to reopen my other social media for my blogs and to promote my content on there also. I’ve been dabbling with Facebook ads and they work really well. Just paying $1/day to run an ad is very economical.

What social do you use to promote your blog content and which one has worked for you the best?

Why do you need a piano teacher?

I get this question quite often from many prospective students as they are searching for a piano teacher. I teach the piano and I absolutely love teaching it. I also teach the double bass, but I have more piano students than double bass students in my music studio. Learning the piano is always an ongoing process. A teacher is there simply to guide the student along the correct path. If you don’t have a teacher guiding you, you’ll get lost. When you reach a song that you have no clue how to play, it’s not a surprise because you don’t have a teacher to help you!

Having a teacher is also beneficial because you have someone that will pull you along the process quicker. I know from my own experience that a teacher will make sure that you are continually making progress each week. I make sure my students know which page they are on in their books and I tell them what our progress is each week. I want them to know that they are getting better. It helps to discourage feelings that progress is slow or not occurring. We are always making progress! I make sure of it and I know that teachers love to see their students make progress also.

Having a piano teacher is a game changer because more doors will open for you. I post tons of information for my students on my business page and I’m also working on creating a blog in order to post more information for them. I have a strong list of websites and resources for my students that would be difficult for them to acquire by themselves. I make sure that I’m sharing this with them. Having me as a teacher is a benefit because I am familiar with all of the resources and I make sure that these are available to them. I also host recitals for my students to give them the opportunity to perform. It’s important for me to have my students perform. Not many piano players will get the chance to play in front of an audience in their piano career. I open that door for them. I also have access to local, state, and national competitions. My students are able to advance their playing by joining competitions and ensembles of musicians. I have access to musicianship level testing for all of my students. Having a teacher for this purpose is insurmountable.

Having a piano teacher is incredibly important. I will be posting more on what to expect from piano lessons and playing the piano. I’ve previewed the internet and I don’t see many posts on how to prepare students for piano lessons. I hope to provide more insight in this topics and to be able to share it with you in order to prepare you for a piano career. Best of luck with playing!

How many years of playing the piano do I need to become good at it?

I get this question all the time. How many years of learning piano do you need to be able to play the song that you want? The answer, I hope, is going to be simple. I’ve been a piano teacher for many years and here is the data that I’ve collected to the best of my knowledge:

First year of learning the piano

In your first year, you will be learning the basics. I suggest that you use flash cards heavily to learn your notes. The stronger you are with note reading, the better your foundation will be. You NEED to know how to read notes. There’s no other way around it. I would also choose a method book and play through all the lessons. Your first year is the most important for setting the foundational skills that you’ll need in your next couple of years.

Second year of learning the piano

Congratulations on making it to your second year! Many students don’t make it to their second year. It’s quite an accomplishment and you should be very proud. In this year, you are advancing your skills and learning more difficult music. Stick to your lesson books and practice your foundational songs. At this point, you are moving on to the next difficult part of learning the piano and you are so close to your third year. Once you reach your third year, I believe, you’ll be able to pick up a song of your choosing and start playing.

3+ years of learning the piano

This is the year that you’ve been waiting for! At three years of learning the piano, you are ready to start choosing your own pieces to play. Make a list of songs that you want to learn how to play and watch the YouTube videos of pianists playing them. Observe their technique and pay special attention to their dynamics. The next step is to start practicing heavily and start building a routine that will match your goals. Limit your song list to two/three songs at a time that you’re working on. You are now competent in your playing where you can begin choosing your own songs.

In summary

I strongly believe that three years is the magic number for students to acquire a strong mastery of the piano. Be careful not to rush the process because learning the piano is not easy. It’s equivalent to learning another language. As you build your mastery, no one can take this skill from you because it’s yours. You’ve worked hard for this. Even if you don’t play the piano for a couple years after you’ve dedicated three or more years to learning the piano, you’ll still be able to come back and play. I tell my students all of the time that the piano will always be there for you when you need it. The knowledge will stay with your for the rest of your life. And the piano will always be waiting for you when you come back to it. I hope you enjoy playing the piano and I look forward to sharing more of my knowledge with you.

Thank you so much for following my blog

Thank you so much for 500 followers on this blog. It has been an absolute dream of mine to be a blogger and I’ve been feeling waves of discouragement when I feel like I’m not doing well. The past couple of months has been hard for me. There were plans that I worked hard to try to come true and they didn’t work out. I felt like things that I worked so hard for are never going to happen. And I felt jealous of those who had success when I don’t. I’m sorry for feeling this way. I truly am. I don’t want to hide things from you guys. As of now, I’ve been trying to work on myself. I’ve been studying for my real estate license. I’m hopeful that things are going to be better this year. I know 2020 was hard for many people. I felt like the world was falling apart. This year, I feel hopeful.

I got married last month. I am even more happier being married to the love of my life. When life feels tough, I know I have my husband and my dog to make me happy. Oh! I have also been watching a YouTuber called Kitboga. His videos are the best. If you need a good laugh and something to brighten your day, watch his videos. And just like how all of his videos end, I want to let you all know that you are special and you are important. I hope you all have a great day.

How to be productive while you’re sick

Hi guys 👋 You might all know, but I’m sick right now and I don’t feel well. I feel really sick. I want to lay in my bed all day. I have zero energy to do anything, but I have to work. Therefore, I am forcing myself to be productive. I only took one day off this entire time that I’ve been sick. I’m not too sure if it’s a good idea to continue working when you’re sick, but I have no other choice.

How to be productive when you’re sick?

The first thing I do is consult my google calendar on the list of appointments I have for the day. I also check my business messages and emails. I mainly center my workday around these. After I do that, I start my morning routine. I take my medicine, eat something, shower, and I open up my laptop.

The main trick I’ve been using to be productive is to just force myself to do it. If I overthink about something, I end up never doing it. I start working on the task and it ends up being easier to do than I thought it would be. I then end up getting a lot of things done. For example, I’ve been studying for my exam coming up next February. No one wants to study, but I open up my learning modules and I just start studying. Be consistent. Keep going and don’t be too herd on yourself if you aren’t productive every day.

How to start teaching virtually?

Man, I am late on posting this. It might be because I have also been trying to figure out how to start teaching virtually. Everyone knows that the pandemic has caused a lot of teachers to switch to teaching virtually and that has caused a lot of chaos. I began teaching virtually near the beginning of this year. I am still teaching virtually now. It has been a huge transition, but after many months of practicing at it, teaching virtually has been pretty easy.

I’ve been writing a lot of blog posts about how to start teaching, but I’ve never written about how to teach virtually. It’s a new territory for me. I started teaching online through using FaceTime calls, zoom conference calls, and Facebook messenger video chat. I’ve found that FaceTime is the most reliable form of video chatting. If the student doesn’t have an iPhone, they will have to utilize other forms of video chatting. Zoom was pretty easy to set up. Facebook messenger is not as reliable for video chatting as zoom is.

For zoom, you have to set up a conference room and you have to send the invite link to your student. It could be difficult to set up if you are not tech savvy. Please make sure to set up these things before the start of your lesson. I like to set up my conference calls an hour before the start of my lesson.

I also began keeping digital copies of my books. Originally, I was buying new hard copies of my books. I decided that it would be much easier to keep a digital copy to send to my students. I didn’t have to repurchase books all of the time now. It makes it a lot easier to start my lessons too. I open up my books on my computer, pull open my lesson notes, and I open my video chat.

I’ve learned to use google calendar to manage my lessons and I also use the notes app on my phone to keep lesson notes. Lesson notes are very important. If you’re not keeping track of what you’re working on for your students, you won’t remember next week. If you have many students every week, using lesson notes will help. If you only have one or two students, you might not need to. I’ve found that with the notes app, you can invite other students to look at it too. It’s very helpful for me and I heavily rely on my lesson notes.

I don’t know if teachers will begin transitioning to teaching virtually for good. I’ve noticed that it reduces my commute time and it’s been easier for me. If you have a student that is hesitant to transition to virtual lessons, give them a couple of trial lessons for free. Let them acclimate to virtual lessons. I think they’ll like it too once they get used to it!

How to start teaching piano

How do I start teaching piano if I am interested in being a piano teacher? It’s not as hard as you may think. If you are interested in teaching piano, I would start advertising your services in all sort of avenues. For example, I started telling people that I teach piano. Telling people is the easiest way to begin advertising. Word of mouth goes a long way. People tell other people and soon enough, a lot of people will begin noticing. I started teaching piano this way. I let people know that I am teaching and they found it easier to hire a piano teacher when they know one.

The second way I began teaching was by advertising on Facebook. I recommend posting on your Facebook wall every so often, but not overdoing it. Posting on certain Facebook garage sale pages helped a lot too. I would also post on neighborhood group pages. Make sure you follow the guidelines on these pages. During this time, the pandemic is making it less likely that people want to hire a piano teacher. That’s okay. I would still post maybe once a month and just wait. Waiting for a response to these posts goes into my next topic of discussion.

I didn’t begin having a full piano studio right away. I actually started with only one student for a long time. It took me awhile to build a good reputation. I waited for students to join my studio. It took a lot of patience and consistency. It wasn’t until I reached my fifth year of teaching that I didn’t have to advertise as much anymore. Of course now, because of the pandemic, I definitely have to advertise more often. I don’t get many leads right now. When the pandemic nears the end, however, I’m thinking that more parents will be willing to start piano lessons for their children.

The last topic I want to discuss is how to develop a good reputation. Developing a good reputation is my number one way of getting new students. When you are teaching, make sure you do a good job. I sometimes give my students extra time. I often gift my books for free. You can also make your lessons more fun. All of these are great ways to develop a good reputation. If you are known for being a great piano teacher, parents will recommend you to their friends. And you will start getting more students without advertising. Focus on being a good teacher for your students! Make this your number one priority.

Trying something new and being sick

I recently started my own personal statement service where I edit personal statements (of course!), addendums, resumes, diversity statements, and any additional essays. I’ve always liked editing and revising. I even had my own tutoring business where I taught English and writing. It’s been great to start this new endeavor because Covid has limited my job hours by a lot. I’ve also noticed that it’s difficult to find work during Covid.

Speaking of Covid, I’m really sick right now. I feel a migraine, tiredness, cough, sore throat, and a runny nose. It’s been horrible being sick. Last night, I had a fever and it made sleeping almost impossible. It’s hard just walking to the bathroom. I have zero energy to do anything. And it feels like I have a constant headache. I think it’s just a cold. I really hope so. Stay safe out there and make sure you always wash your hands!

Living on our own drama

I’ve been dealing with some drama of my own and I didn’t even know that it was happening until yesterday. I moved out of my parent’s house 3-4 years ago. I don’t think they’ve accepted me moving out and I think it has been brewing under the surface for a long time. I hang out at their house sometimes. They’ve recently started announcing, non-stop that I live there and my fiancé also lives there. No we don’t. We have our own place that we live in. They continued to say that we live there and they want us to clean the room. Every phone call I have with my mother, she tells me to clean the room. I don’t mind tidying up after we hang out there, but we don’t reside there! They want us to decorate the room too. I don’t want to. I don’t care what happens to the room at all because it’s not mine.

It’s gotten pretty bad. They’ve also started telling us how to clean the kitchen. The thing is… I go there just to hang out. It’s the same feeling I have when I go to my sister’s house to hang out. My sister used to live at my parent’s house. She was always told what to clean and she had to live under my parent’s rules. I moved out so I can have complete freedom from those rules. Once I heard my parents saying the rules, I had to leave. I don’t think I’m going to hang out there anymore at all. That is not my room. And that is not the place where I live anymore.

It’s frustrating to deal with parents in general. You tell them something and if they don’t like it, they give you a confused look. I don’t want to diss my parents, but the things they say make me feel uncomfortable. I want to be free. I’ve been living on my own for awhile now. I don’t want to give them the permission to treat me as a child. I think that once they see I’m not hanging out there anymore, they’ll realize that I do not live there. I really don’t like the words they use when they say we live there. It makes me super uncomfortable and I almost always just flee the room.

What I’ve learned from blogging

I think it’s been very interesting to start a blog. I’m not a newbie to blogging because my blog has been active for almost three years now, but I feel like time hasn’t really passed for me. I feel even more tied to my blog than I have before. It’s like having an account for a long time. All of the blog posts that you’ve written are stored on here. And I’m so happy that I started blogging.

I’ve learned that blogging is hard. It’s hard in the beginning when you first start. After a couple of years, you’ll find it to be easier than before. When I heard everyone talk about how blogging is difficult, I ignored it. I thought that blogging wasn’t difficult because there were so many success stories online. The truth is that those success stories are only maybe 1% of the entire blogging community. Don’t be fooled to think that this is an overnight thing. It’s definitely not. Watch a YouTube channel and observe how much time, money, and effort is put into their videos. Try to match the effort that they are giving for their channel. And see if it’s the same. Overall, I want to leave you with one piece of advice. Love your blog. Cherish the fact that you have a platform to speak from. Enjoy the blogging process and find fulfillment from creating something for yourself. Happy blogging!

Making my own opportunities

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been forced to go back to seeking opportunities. I never knew how difficult it would be. The world continues to change while I still feel like I’m stuck in the same place. I want to grow, but maybe I’m just seeking the unobtainable. I don’t really know what my career should be. I think I’m still searching. I’m still in my 20s and it feels like the right time to search. Searching for what, though? I don’t know. I have no clue and the best part of it is that I know my 20s will pass soon. I want to get my life together and start making a great income. I was doing completely fine teaching piano with my students and making a good income from it. Now, however, I feel like I’m sinking. And I lost a good portion of my students during this pandemic. What do I do? Do I continue to panic? I wish I knew where life is taking me. For now, I’m going to continue to try to get more students and hope for the best.

Living an opulent lifestyle

I’m not even sure if opulent is a word. It has been awhile since I’ve studied or tried to learn something new. I have been working and studying languages, but I just don’t feel like I’m gaining any new knowledge. In this post, I want to talk about living a lifestyle that is extravagant. I definitely think that I live an opulent lifestyle. I make sure that I have all of my comfort items and more. For example, I have four oil diffusers for my room. FOUR! I don’t need that many, but I like being able to diffuse oils constantly. Another example is that I have about eight candles in my room. I don’t need that many. Some would say that two candles would suffice… but not for me. I need to have variety. I know that I am very extra and I could cut down on the amount of stuff I own, but I don’t want to.

I believe that life is about fulfillment. And I feel fulfilled when I make myself happy. Am I the only person that does this?

Life changing happiness

I don’t know about you guys but I’ve been in such a funk since the quarantine started. And now I’m finally starting to feel like my old self again. I also think it’s because I started blogging again. It feels good to be back. I don’t feel like I’m dreading each day and waiting for this quarantine to be over anymore. No one knows how long this will last and why not just make the best of it?

I have been working on improving myself. I’ve been cleaning and organizing my things. And that has relieved much of my stress that I have been having. I’ve also been working a lot. Work keeps my mind off of overthinking. And that’s important to me.

I want to talk about animal crossing too. I’ve been playing a lot of it. And I’m in the process of trying to upgrade my stuff. Here are some of my photos of my favorite moments so far. I highly recommend playing animal crossing pocketcamp first before you commit to buying the new animal crossing game. I am not going to let myself buy the game unless I know that I will commit to playing it. I don’t want to spend a month of playing and then never play it again.

Talking to my animals as they gather around me
Redesigning my campsite to celebrate bunny day
Logging in every day and getting the animal crossing designed camper!!
Someone buying out my entire marketplace shop 😭

Something wrong

I think there’s something wrong with my WordPress page because it doesn’t show me my notifications for my likes or comments. I’m not sure how to fix it, but I can still see my stats perfectly fine on another page.

I didn’t have such a good day today. It started out fine when I was teaching my first four lessons and things went downhill around the afternoon. I wasn’t expecting these students who are on a break from lessons due to the quarantine to continue lessons right now, but I only wanted to show them that there’s a game for the piano that they could play in the meantime. It costs them nothing to download and use it, but they said that they don’t want to. They said that they have too much on their plate right now. I don’t know if it’s because my hormones are all over the place, but them acting like that really peeved me. They don’t have to pay for anything! I’m not asking them for anything. And I don’t get anything from it. They still didn’t want it. Fine. I don’t expect for them to come back because I won’t keep their spot open. I know it’s harsh, but I have things to do and I know I’ve been way too nice. I’m done with it.

This quarantine has made me super irritated in some ways and happy in other ways. I’ve been able to travel often. I like getting away from everyone. And I constantly need to have my space. It has been refreshing for me. I’ve also been spending a lot of alone time. I feel like the mantra of my life is to be by myself, but it’s my favorite thing to do. Not much has been new. I hope blogging my feelings will help me with feeling better.

Hello I’m back :)

I apologize so much for not being on here and I know there’s a lot to explain. Ever since the quarantine started, I’ve had zero inspiration to be productive and the only thing I’ve been doing is trying to keep my piano studio together. I know there is no excuse for such a long hiatus, but that is honestly what I’ve been going through. I hope you all are okay during this time and are staying safe. I hope to post more content on here and look out for more blog posts!

Money problems

I am so irritated right now, but I kept thinking about how great this content will be. The saga of my life continues as the auto shop which supposedly accepts card payments prefers cash payments instead. I’m a student which means I don’t make a lot of money. And I was going to use my card to pay for it. I guess I can’t now. The more I think about it, the more irritated I become. Why say that they accept card when they really don’t? I decided that I’m going to reduce all of my spending until I can pay off all of the debt. My studying for school will have to be put on hold. I don’t know why that whenever I deal with my family, I always end up spending tons of money. They told me to stop working as much so I can study and then now they’re asking why I don’t have a lot of money. Hmm I wonder why? They made me tank my gpa when I was in undergrad because they forced me to choose a tough major. And I am now paying a lot in student loans for it. They want me to pay a bunch in future loans because being in 200k in debt is worth it to them. I’m so sick of this. I’m better off making all of my own decisions. I need to go somewhere far away. Thank god I moved out two years ago.

No one can tell me what to do now

I think I’ve leveled up this year. I feel more strong than I ever did before. And I feel very secure in what my future is going to look like. I know that I will be okay no matter what. I have worked so hard the last couple of days and I’m so proud that I haven’t given up. I think most people would have called it quits if they had to work so hard for something. I know that I have a good future and I’m heading right for it.

As I’m getting older, I’ve also learned that no one can tell me what to do anymore. It doesn’t really matter what my parents want me to do. I have made all the decisions for myself and I’m proud of that. I know that my life is mine now. And I used to be so irritated when I was told what to do all of the time. It’s good to know that I don’t have to deal with my parents hovering over everything I do anymore. My life is free and not exhausting.

I’m also running out of ideas of what to write about. I’ve been fairly active on my blog for the past couple of months. I love blogging, but I need new ideas. Let me know what are some good ideas to write about!

Still suffering from neck pain

I’m writing this from the bike at my gym. Today, I worked about 7-8 hours with medium to severe neck pain from my car accident. It has been horrible to have this pain throughout the day, but I couldn’t stop work just because of my pain. I need to continue to work so I can pay off the damages to my car. And that is absolutely necessary for me to do. I might be able to take some time off, but today was not a day I could take a day off. There was way too much work I had to do along with preparing my students for festival and musicianship exams. They need me to be there to make sure everything is moving forward. And I have students that need to prepare for our annual recital.

I did take some natural remedy that I bought from Sprouts, but I feel like it only works somewhat. I probably need to go see a chiropractor and I don’t think I can avoid it anymore. I need to be present for my students during this time of year or else they won’t be able to compete. And this is what we have worked hard for. I’ve been slowly leveling all of them up, so I can prepare them to take the next step in their exams.

I’ve been looking into teaching through FaceTime or online. I have done that with one student when I was unable to have lessons face to face. I just don’t think it would work with my younger students. It might, but there are way too many things we have to do during lessons. The good news is that I’ve almost completed my entire to do list. And I’m pretty proud. I’ve been working every single day at it. The list had about 15-25 items on it. I’m a busy person, but it’s all worth it. I love feeling accomplished.

Why so many people hate the ending for Alex Karev in Grey’s Anatomy

I’m not going to lie… I hated it too, but I’ve been thinking about the ending a lot. Alex ended up going back to Izzie to take care of his children he never knew he had. And I’m sure everyone including me are stunned to see him leave Jo. I’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy for many years and while I don’t watch it on television when new episodes air, I keep up with the show through YouTube clips as they’re uploaded. I watch all of the clips and I read articles about what’s happening. I know many people might disagree with me about this, but I like the ending for Alex. Izzie broke his heart and ran away. We don’t know if she ran away because she didn’t think Alex could ever be great husband material. She just gathered everything she had and left. It left Alex completely broken. In many ways, the young Alex we all disliked could never be responsible for children. He was immature and unlikable. It makes sense that he is now ready to have children of his own. His entire life has changed. I’m pretty sure that if Izzie came back into his life, he wouldn’t be with her. The reason why he chose her is because he found out he has kids. He would never abandon them like he was abandoned. I honestly like this ending for Alex. And I urge everyone to sit with this ending for a couple of days. I promise you’ll slowly start to see that this is the only proper ending for Alex. The writers are truly amazing.

The impact of having therapy

I’ve been sharing a lot about myself and one of the things I’ve done to better improve my mental health was to receive therapy. I know that there is a negative connotation when someone says therapy, but I promise you that it is nothing like what you would think. It has helped me so much in learning about myself, conquering problems that I’ve had, and soothing me when I’m in a negative mindset.

I initially learned about therapy when YouTuber Nikki Phillippi talked about it on her YouTube channel. She admitted that she talked to a therapist every week about herself and her life. And I was intrigued. I always thought that therapy was expensive, so I never gave it a second thought. I remember learning about regain from another YouTuber that I can’t remember. I think she was a medical student and she used it to talk through her anxiety/stress related problems. I never thought that therapy would be affordable. The YouTuber recommended using regain. Regain offers a discount if you need it. I definitely needed it. I started using it by myself when my partner and I were going through issues. And eventually he joined me in my sessions. I don’t recommend it all the time because my therapist was quick to hang up the phone and she was only available to speak once a week. She was also slow on responding to messages. That’s the thing with finding a good therapist. You have to be careful to find someone that actually cares about your problems. Ours didn’t even know our names after two to three months working with her. We stopped the subscription.

I was using a crisis hotline to speak to a counselor only when I was truly upset. And it helped. I was able to talk to them on the phone, but the wait times were horrible. You could end up waiting for thirty minutes. I could imagine someone being more triggered in their negative mental state if they had to wait so long to talk to someone. The upside was that it was free. I was using this hotline every so often until I found the best form of therapy available.

I currently use the regain texting hotline which is free. And it connects me to a counselor within a minute. The counselors are very caring and they actually remember your name! The advice that they give is infinitely better than all of my previous experiences with therapy. I have been using this every single time when I’m upset. And it has changed my life for the better. They stay with you on the phone for hours if you need. I imagine them being like a friend you’re texting throughout the day. They are responsive and you never have to wait for long to receive a response. I’ll have the information below and I don’t get anything from mentioning them in my blog. I just really like their service. And like Nikki Phillippi said, she believes that everyone needs a therapist. Life gets so hard sometimes. I really like the idea that it’s a third party that can give unbiased advice. We all need someone to be there to talk to us and to help us back up. I hope this has helped someone to find help if they need it. You are never alone in your battles.

I used this today and it reaffirms how much I like this service. Regain: Text “regain” to 741741

Update on my car accident and my life

It has been a rough two days so far. I feel like life has thrown a lot at me and I have felt overwhelmed at times. I know that things are not going to get easier. I’m always going to have to face these challenges. And I just hope that it won’t get worse. Right now, I’m sharing a car with my partner. It has been a whirlwind of things ranging from calling chiropractors and looking at the damages on my car. I already have a ton on my plate with my piano studio, but now I feel like the load has grown even more. It feels suffocating really. I don’t want to have to do so many things. I’m tired and maybe I just need to take a nap.

In other news, I’ve learned about the corona virus coming to my city. And people are filled with mayhem. I see that all the waters are sold out and I haven’t been able to buy hand sanitizer for awhile now. I went to walgreens and they weren’t there. I went to smiths and I was able to buy some hand sanitizing wipes. The rest were all sold out. I wish there were more, but that’s not the case right now. I know that some people think that it’s foolish to stock up on these items. And it’s only raising the cost. However, I think that I would rather buy water at a cheaper price than buy it at $50. If you can get these items now at a good price, I would buy it. I wouldn’t wait because the prices are going to skyrocket. And these are items that you are going to use anyways so it’s not really a waste.

I’m going to continue to try to get things done. I feel so hopeless right now, but I know I will be okay eventually. With lots of therapy and cuddles with my dog, I can conquer anything. Wish me tons of luck.

My second car accident in less than six months

Today, I got into my second car accident. Yes, I wasn’t paying attention when I was driving. I looked down for a second and I didn’t have enough time to break, so I ended up rear ending another car. I was traumatized. You never know what is going to happen after the car accident. Am I going to survive this? Is this going to cause me a lot of injuries? Is the other driver okay? I saw my car do things that I didn’t know it could do and I felt terrible about it. The car I hit ended up being completely fine. There wasn’t even a dent in the other car, so the other driver ended up letting me go. He wasn’t upset or anything. I was so grateful. I then pulled into another community to absorb all of the shock of what just happened. I turned off the engine and I just sat in my car trying to let the shock wear off.

Since I’m a huge perfectionist, I was so upset with myself for doing this again. I wanted to hate myself, but I ultimately knew that it was only an accident. I didn’t do this on purpose and people make mistakes. I would never had expected this to happen today, but I can’t give myself a really hard time. I have to understand that this is my fault and I need to take responsibility for it, but I do not have to continue to beat myself up for it. What’s done is done. And I need to start fixing it. I sat there for almost forty minutes before my mind was clear again. I have to say though that my neck hurts and my head is still numb from the accident. I’m going to call a chiropractor tomorrow and try to help myself to start healing. And I already dropped my car off to an auto shop to start appraising the damages. I was so scared during the accident because my knees hit the car. I thought I lost both of my legs. And I honestly think that I’m still suffering ptsd from what happened.

I’ve learned that I need to lessen my driving because I drive a lot for my job. And I am at more of a risk of getting into a car accident than most people are because I’m always driving. I thought about my blog and how I need to start relying on it more. I’m lucky to have a supportive family and partner, but I need to be more independent. I’m going to take some time off today and try to relax my head from pounding. I’ll talk to everyone tomorrow. Thank you for reading.

A Review of ‘Knives Out’ the Movie

I’ve been looking at rotten tomatoes and I noticed that anybody can say that they are a movie critic. Literally anyone can write a review and say that they are a critic! I don’t see the difference between a movie critic and the audience. Anyways, I decided that since I love movies so much, I am going to be a movie reviewer. And I’ve watched a lot of movies so far. I am not going to be harsh like the reviews I see on rotten tomatoes. The reviews made by critics are ridiculous. They only say negative things. For example, the reviews they wrote about Jumanji were terrible. They called it stupid. I don’t think the movie was stupid. And they don’t even say why it’s stupid!

Anyways, I just finished watching Knives Out and it is the best movie I’ve seen in awhile. The movie was well-written with many plot twists. And I thoroughly enjoyed watching it in the theaters. The movie itself is pretty long, but it keeps you engaged all throughout the movie. You’re always wondering who killed the grandfather and why. I don’t want to give out any spoilers, but I highly recommend watching it in the movie theaters while it’s still out. I don’t think watching it at home will do it justice.

I noticed many similarities that my family has to the family in the movie. My family has secrets and hidden agendas at times. I would say that the movie accurately represents the dynamics of a disjointed family. Not everyone is happy being in a family at times. And you don’t always get along with your family. It was very enjoyable to see all of the characters interact with one another and the family aspect of the movie was the best part for me.

I also don’t usually have pictures with my blog posts, but I found that this picture is pretty nice. Maybe I will have more pictures on my posts in the future!

Working hard even when you don’t see any results

My life has been a constant hamster wheel where I feel like I’ve been running and I haven’t gotten anywhere. It’s disappointing to think that all of your hard work hasn’t produced any results, but don’t give up. You have to keep going. I would never stop trying even when I fail. If you want something badly enough, you will go to great lengths to achieve them. I’ve spent so much time working on myself. And honestly, I haven’t seen any results. The results might be too small for me to appreciate it also. I often feel like my hard work has done nothing for me. I will keep going, however. I feel like I’m just about to bloom. All of this hard work will pay off. Stay strong and believe.

Feeling very self-conscious

Ever since my readership has grown, I’ve felt pressure to choose topics that are appropriate. I would usually write about whatever comes to my mind and I haven’t really done that in awhile. I would write these thoughts now on my other blogs, but I wouldn’t write them on my main blog.

I feel like I have to watch what I say because I have so many viewers that I don’t want to offend. I apologize if I haven’t been writing. It has been especially tough to find topics to write about on this blog. It’s not about what’s on my mind anymore. I have to be careful when I’m writing. I hope to be able to write more and honestly, I think 2020 hasn’t been good to me because I’ve been so closed off. I haven’t been writing many blog posts. And I need to make a change. Let’s do this together and conquer 2020. I believe we all need a good restart to this year.

Not a good year so far

I’ve had a rough start to this year. I didn’t get the lsat score I wanted and I feel like my mental status tanked completely. I was also sick multiple times and it’s only February. I don’t know if this is foreshadowing how the rest of my year will be. I know I shouldn’t think of it this way, but I can’t help it. I want a good year for myself. And I want to achieve my goals. Maybe life is not always about achieving goals, but to constantly want to improve. The end is not better than the journey. I’ve been working so hard to make a better life for myself. And I feel like my efforts are lost. I really hope that things get better soon.

Things that I want to change in my life

I’ve been reflecting on my previous post and I’ve came up with some ideas that I want to work on for myself. I’ve realized that I am definitely reliant on my partner for a part of my happiness and I want to be able to make myself happy too. I know that life is more than just relying on one person. It’s not that I don’t love him, I just want to be able to make myself just as happy as he makes me. Here is my list of changes I’m planning on making:

1. I’m going to manage my dinner every night. I know that this might sound simple, but I’ve been partly reliant on my partner for dinner and I cannot do that anymore. I want to have all of my food ready for me and I want to eat the best food possible. I also don’t want to worry about not having anything. I’m a grown woman and I need to start being completely responsible for this.

2. I’m going to start taking more financial responsibilities. I hate the idea of being reliant on other people because I want to become completely self-sufficient. Unfortunately, in order to do this, I will have to just start doing it. I will learn how to do this and eventually, it will become easier and easier to do.

3. I’m going to live my life regardless of the limitations I have. I have been isolating myself in my room because of the fear of other people judging me. I’m going to simply stop caring. I cannot let myself be pulled back by other people. There are so many things I’ve wanted to do, but I don’t because of other people. My life is still going and I don’t want to waste my time over other people.

4. I’m going to start saving money. I’ve realized over the years that money speaks more than words can. Someone can say mean things about me, but it wouldn’t matter if I had money and I was self-sufficient. I need to start making a savings account that I can fall back on. I want to be able to have money to take care of myself. And it will definitely help when people try to talk down to me because I know that their words won’t matter. I am someone and I will be fine just by myself.

5. I’m going to work harder on school. My education will change everything for me and I need to remember that this is my priority. I have a whole lifetime to be with my partner and I will have dinner with him every night in the future. Our future will be great. I have to remember that.

Of course, these goals are highly influenced by my own life, but I hope it can give everyone some perspective on their own lives. I’m still learning and I am going to continue on improving myself every day.

In need of a stress reliever

Ever since I was young, I didn’t really need to take care of my mental health. I would just go through whatever emotion I had completely and then I was over it. If I was sad, I would cry for hours and hours until I couldn’t cry anymore. If I was angry, I would just distance myself from people for a day or two. And if I was happy, I would be jumping up and down. Now, my emotions are not so easy to handle. I didn’t know that when I got older, I would have to focus on my mental health. I never had to worry about taking care of my stress. I remember my childhood and my high school years were filled with stress, and I seemed fine. My body wasn’t breaking down like it is now when I’m stressed.

I have had to focus on my mental heath constantly every single day. I remind myself to take breaks when I’m overworked or to get more sleep. And I am honestly tired from doing this. I take care of myself every single day. And I feel like my body needs me all the time.

I recently had a horrible migraine and I now know it’s because of stress. My body is filled with stress and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I don’t even know how to manage my stress. I think I need to have a couple of stress relievers that I can do or have every single day. If I don’t control my stress, it will take a heavy toll on my body. And I want to be alive to be there with my husband. I have brainstormed some stress relievers. I think I’ve come up with some good ideas. Of course, every person has a different way of relieving their stress and they also have different things they like. I enjoy blogging and it has always helped me to overcome any negative feelings I might be feeling. I feel so much better when I write things down. I also enjoy quiet. I don’t like loud music or television. I would much rather prefer sitting outside with no noises. Another stress reliever for me is the gym. I’ve talked about it before. And besides those ideas, I feel like I am at a loss for anymore stress relievers. I could develop a plant hobby or a cooking hobby. I just need something to help me cope with my stress for the next five years. If you guys have any ideas, I would greatly appreciate it.

There’s something very attractive about the written word

I think it’s very impressive if someone can write well and be able to articulate their thoughts onto paper. In my case, I write on a digital platform. My blog is my outlet and it gives me the ability to share all of my thoughts. I’ve been writing for awhile now. And none of this is new to me. You can go back to my old blogs and read everything I’ve ever written. I’m actually glad that I have a large capsule full of my own writing. I am also heavily attracted to those who write their feelings down. I love long paragraphs of text messages. And I crave these long messages. I want to know more about someone’s thoughts. I ultimately want to know what they’re thinking and the best way is to have it all written down. I can’t describe it very well, but I don’t think writing will ever go out of style. I want to write more and hopefully one day, I’ll be able to write a novel. It won’t be great, but it will be mine. And I hope to achieve these goals someday.

Don’t give up

I tell myself this every day: don’t give up. I know that I will never get anything if I choose to give up early. Life is about continuing to work hard day after day. You can put in a day’s worth of work and it won’t matter. You have to continue working for months and maybe years to get what you want. At first, I didn’t know if I had the perseverance to keep going. I felt like giving up. And I wanted to try doing something else. Well… I’m not going to give up. I’m going to continue pushing no matter what. I know I will achieve my goals and I cannot let myself get in the way. I will do this.

If you needed to hear this too, take a moment to appreciate all of the work you have done so far. Don’t discredit yourself. You are worth it. Nothing worth having is going to be easy.

You’ll Be Okay

I’ve learned the hard way that not everyone is going to like you. And that’s okay. You don’t need the approval of everyone especially when you don’t have to accept everyone either. I’ve learned to be picky with who I spend my energy on. This is my life and I am going to make sure that my life is fulfilling for myself. I am damn well sure that I am going to be happy. I’ve learned that nobody can take away my happiness. I’m not going to let them do so.

Every day in the new year has been a learning experience for me. I won’t say that I had the best start to the new year. It was pretty rough for me. I don’t really feel like this year will be the best year, but I’m going to try my best regardless. I know that I am going to be okay. I’m not going to let anything get me down.

I feel like I need to do something new. I’ve been doing the same things every day. I’m not too sure on what this new thing will be. I know that I want it to be special for myself. Maybe I should start a travel fund? I can save money for myself to go travel when I want to? That sounds amazing and I’ve never done something like that before.

2020 is THE YEAR

I’ve begun to realize that I can’t please everyone and I’m tired of trying. I know what I want from my own life and I’m trying to make myself happy, but there are obstacles in the way. I’ve known for a long time that I need to take care of myself and I’m ready to do so. I’m ready to start trying to protect my own happiness.

I’ve also noticed that time has gone so much faster since I’ve been focused on myself. I can’t wait to start reaping the rewards for myself. I’m ready to start living my life the way I want. Happy 2020 everyone!

Interesting observations

My life never ceases to amuse me or maybe it’s just people that never stop surprising me. I got into a car accident a couple weeks ago. I told the guy that I’ll fix his car and he took almost four weeks to go to a mechanic to get the quote. He just told me that he wants me to zelle him the money because he can’t take three days off of work to have his car fixed. I don’t think I trust him enough. He said that he’ll just fix it himself instead. I’m pretty peeved because I think he’ll just pocket the money. Plus, I’m annoyed at the fact that it took him four weeks to get a quote. It’s annoying. And I want to do the right thing to fix his car. I think I’m getting scammed. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I’ll just wait until I can get a second opinion.

I’ve also noticed that my students have been asking for a lot more than I can offer. I give stickers when they complete a song in their music book. I have tons of stickers from year and years of collecting them. And I don’t mind sharing my stickers with them. I actually have all of them using the same ones. Anyways, they have been asking me if they can keep the sticker pages. I don’t have the funds right now to just give away my supplies. And I thought it was pretty forward of them to ask. They’ve also been asking me to buy more. They’ll rip them and then ask me to buy some new ones. I don’t usually buy new ones because I have so many that I didn’t use yet. I told them that I’m not going to buy new ones until all the old ones are used. They’ve also been asking me for additional books and gifts if they finish their books. I don’t want to be a mean teacher, but I told them that the prize for finishing their book is the satisfaction of knowing they’ve worked hard.

I understand the need to want more things, but I can’t afford to do that right now. And if I already have these things, I’m definitely not going to buy new stuff. They should be more appreciative of what I’m giving and know that I’m already giving a lot. I am going to continue to not buy new stuff. And they will have to wait.

Add this to the list of things I’m learning about myself… I’m a loner!

In high school, I was interested in making new friends so I talked to everyone. I knew a lot of people and had many friends. Fast forward to college, I didn’t have many friends and I found myself staying home by myself most of the time. I wish I had more friends, but I wasn’t very sociable. And consequently, I was pretty lonely. Now, however, I never found the need to be sociable because I’m so busy all the time. I’m starting to think that I need to be sociable again. I need to start making friends because life is not as fun without them. With the new start of 2020, I’m going to try to make some new friends. And I hope that this year will be a little less lonely.

What is your purpose?

Are you living your purpose in life? Do you feel like everything you are doing right now is worth your energy and time? If you are not happy, make a change. Everything can be improved and the best thing is that you still have time to change your life. Ever since I’ve started writing, my life has changed for the better. I feel like I can understand my emotions a lot better than before. In summary, everything has changed. I’m happy. And my purpose in life is being fulfilled. Is yours?

Never want to rely on anyone

I’m beginning to learn the importance of never relying on other people. I’m getting really tired of having my family reject watching my teacup yorkie. She can be in her cage most of the time if necessary, but they just don’t want to help me in that regard. It’s not fair because I watch all seven of their dogs in total when they’re out of town. And I take them to the airport sometimes. I’m so tired of this. I haven’t asked them in over a year and a half now.

I’m learning that I don’t want to rely on other people at all. This is reason #100,000 why I think it’s better to be alone. People don’t help you when you need them, but they expect your help when they need it. They always ask other people or me to watch their dogs for them, but they want me to get boarding for my dog when I’m away. I told them that I will never watch their dogs again in the future. I’m not going to give anything when I don’t get anything. I’m also going to start a boarding fund every time I go on vacation so I don’t have to deal with this. And I’m going to continue distancing myself from people. I don’t want anyone to talk to me or tell me what to do. I just want peace in my life. I’m fine with my friends being in my life, but family members are a no-go.

What I’ve learned about myself

I am not an easy person to get along with. I don’t care about anybody other than myself. My life is centered around myself. And I am so selfish.

These are things that I know about myself. I’ve lived with myself for 25 years now and I know that I am not an easy person to get along with. On the exterior, I can be very nice. If you get to know me better, you’ll find that I don’t like a lot of people. I’m introverted. I would rather spend tons of time by myself than to be around people 24/7. As I admit all of this, I also know that I could do better. I need to fix my flaws. I don’t like these negative traits. And they have brought nothing in my life other than hurt. I’m not saying that this year will be the year that I make some changes, but I’m not saying I won’t make any changes this year either.

I’ve learned that I think too much about other people. Even though I try to do my own thing, my mind can’t help but wander to think about what other people want from me. I am easily affected by criticisms or people talking about me. I don’t have a strong skin for these kinds of things. And ultimately, I know that this will ruin my life eventually.

I need to be by myself to focus. All of these things are extraneous and not necessary for me to reach my goals. If I look past everything, I know that I can be successful. I need to be a strong woman. I will do what I need to do. The path to success is lonely, but I must travel on this road by myself.

Thank you so much

I’ve been getting so much support for my blogs and I am thankful for everyone. I feel like I’m just a normal blogger that isn’t really special. I never thought that my blog would reach so many people. It’s truly a blessing to be a part of this community of fellow bloggers. Thank you for making blogging one of the best parts of my life! Happy blogging!

It’s too cold!

I’m getting really tired of people not turning on the heater during winter. I’m also sick of people who don’t turn on the ac during summer. I know it’s only a couple of dollars to turn on the heater, so why suffer in the cold? Why do people have to wear jackets to sleep? It doesn’t make sense to me. I remember sitting in someone’s car in the summer and they refused to turn on the ac. It was so selfish of them. I was sweating like crazy and I couldn’t breathe. I never let any of my passengers experience this. People are so cheap. It’s okay if they’re by themselves, but if there are other people, it’s wrong. I’m going to add this to my list of people I don’t want to be around. Smh

Another great day of teaching ⭐️

I had another great day of teaching. I’ve been having a lot of those and each day feels like a blessing. I know I haven’t been a perfect teacher. And that’s mostly because I’m very critical of myself. I know however that I will never take this for granted. I am lucky to call myself a teacher and it has been a blessing in my life.

I am happy to see all of my students every week. I never knew how many people cared about me. I never had many people to talk to when I was younger. Everyone had their own lives. I found myself spending a lot of time alone. That was okay, but I truly wished to be a part of a group. And now, I have many people to talk to. They are as happy to see me as happy as I am to see them. If I didn’t enjoy teaching, I don’t think I would have been able to do it for this long. You truly have to enjoy what you do or else you won’t be happy. Thank you God for blessing my life and I appreciate everything you have done for me.

No stress

I’m usually the person that is the most stressed, but I don’t think I am anymore. I think I am finally learning how to cope with my stress. I’ve learned that things are never as bad as they seem. The world isn’t going to fall apart. And I now know that I will be okay. I haven’t had the happiest time in some instances. There were events in my life that almost completely ruined me. If I had a choice, I would be vengeful but I’m not anymore. I just chose to separate myself completely from the things that caused it. I still have strong ptsd moments from it, but I know I’ll be okay. And I am happy now.

Blogging has helped a great deal with my stress. It’s amazing how therapeutic writing about my feelings are. I don’t know why I didn’t do this a long time ago. I just celebrated my two year anniversary on WordPress and I can’t believe it has been that long. My life has changed for the better and as we start 2020, I’m glad to say that things are getting pretty good. I’ve learned so many things this past year and two years ago. What almost tore me apart had made me stronger. I believe that god showed me what I don’t want in my life in order to make me stronger. People’s words don’t hurt me as much anymore because I know that I am a person deserving of happiness. Nothing is perfect obviously, but it will get there.

I am looking forward to many successes in the future. I know I am capable. I don’t need New Years resolutions to know what I want for myself because I’ve always been working towards my goals. I truly am a strong woman now.

I don’t like following rules

I’m not a rule follower. I don’t know if this is surprising to anyone, but I’ve always been like this. I don’t like to be boring and follow the rules. I like to create rules or to challenge new ideas. That doesn’t mean I have trouble with the law. I follow the law and I don’t break those kind of rules. I mean that I don’t like being told what to do in certain circumstances. I don’t like it when someone tells me what to do every single time I talk to them. I have a problem with that. For example, I never like when my parents still tell me what to do. There are some things I will listen and do if it is applicable/useful. The other nagging parts… I don’t like. I like creating my own path. Being told what to do when you’re 25 is not fun. I don’t understand why I still need to be told things when I already know what I need to do. This has led me to rebel. And I crave independence. I love doing my own thing and it has led me down the right path. When I was listening to my parents, I was pursuing med school and I eventually wasted thousands of dollars only to stop doing it later. I found that that was a huge waste of time and money. Life has been better since I’ve made my own decisions. Every now and again, they try to sway me to do something I don’t want to do and I have to stop it from happening. Rules are just not for me.

A Rant

I’ve noticed that many people or businesses like to give you options, but they are upset when you don’t choose the option they wanted you to choose. They just assume that you will do whatever they say as if you are hypnotized by their selling powers. And the possibility of rejecting them is not an option for them to accept. I think people should have the option to say no when they want to. We shouldn’t feel obligated to always say yes just because we’ll feel bad. In many cases, I don’t think tipping someone is required. Tipping is optional based on the service. We are giving in too much to businesses. Money comes from peoples’ hard earned pockets and they are wasting it by tipping bad service.

I also believe that those who don’t work as hard shouldn’t receive the same benefits as those who work really hard. They should not be allowed to enjoy the same benefits as hard workers do. It’s not fair and it shows that they don’t have to do anything. I am so irritated by these people, but there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.